Christmas Present

A splendid diversity of holy-day greetings to all y’all!

For your Christmas present I give you a glimpse of Christmas past and a prayer for Christmas future. This is an excerpt from my book “I Am Liberty, One Mind’s Journey through Ascension,” written ten years ago at Christmas 2001. My 24-year marriage was over and our living arrangement (for the sake of finances) discarded . My shattered family was emotionally raw and fragile.  

My writing (like my life) is an ongoing exchange with God/Self. God’s voice, as it comes to me, appears in italics. My Christmas prayers from 2001 have since been answered in astounding ways beyond my wildest imaginings, and I have a wild imagination!  My life today is filled with grace and so blessed…fulfilled. Stay tuned, because the breathtaking synchronicity of how my prayers were answered is the subject (and more) of my next book, “One Becomes One.” 

We celebrate the birthday of the Prince of Peace is a few days. Will yours be an orgy of consumerism? Have you been suckered once again by the hype and by selfish desires? It’s okay, because you can choose once again, deciding to embrace your own Christ nature and live as he would have us live.

Wonderful God of the Universe, please awaken each heart to embrace a new “ism” this  Christmas and for all time and seasons: compassionism. Help us to truly honor the Prince of Peace by demonstrating the compassionate peace that longs to shine in every heart. Help us and guide us to pay love forward, to give of our time, talents and treasure to the “least of these,” the poor and hungry and homeless, the sick and diseased and hurting, the disenfranchised and marginalized and labelled….Dear God, awaken us to our interdependent oneness with each other, with the Earth and with You.     Amen. 

God bless us, every one. God bless YOU!  ~ Libby

He moved out and we bought a Christmas tree anyway

Yep, he did it. He didn’t wait until I have a job. How is that going to work? He rented an apartment and moved out last Tuesday. He didn’t take much stuff, but we don’t have much extra to be taken. The kids decorated a little Christmas tree for him as a gift and we bought a lovely fir tree from North Carolina for home. A local news crew was taking pictures at the Christmas tree lot and little Isaac’s picture with his Christmas tree made it into the local newspaper.

It’s been over a week now since he left. Today is December 6. The first couple of days were strange and hollow and dark. I didn’t like that place at all. It is a place of grief and mourning for what has been and what will not be. But it is a place of illusion, because now comprises neither what has been nor what will be. In this now, I declare that the ending of this relationship has no power over me. And that will be true until it is not, eh God?

You know waves of mourning will come, little one. There are still triggers in your consciousness, mostly connected to our children. But know this, beloved Liberty, that your desires are so close to fulfillment, you are so near to Perpetual Consciousness…oh, my darling child, if you could but see all that I know for you.

It’s hard right now to believe anything great and wonderful is coming, You know? Yes, that sums up My difficulty quite well. And yet, I do know it. You know, God, that You leave few signposts letting us know where we’re going in Spirit entertain the thought that perhaps you don’t see all the signs well, okay. No argument. You know how much I desire that the perfect publisher pick up this manuscript submission and know that she knows this is You. Waiting sucks and I’m tired of it. That’s the plain truth. Continue on, beloved of Mine, for instantaneous manifestation comes and there You go again, interrupting with a great and wonderful stuff that I KNOW is on the tip of my experience, like a word on the tip of my tongue.

This experience of my marriage relationship breaking: this is the harbinger of the greatness and wonder of Christ manifesting fully in me, through me, as me. I have to know that YOU are my Source, my Abundance, my all and everything in my experience. I still had some dependence on marriage, on sameness and on physical security. These are illusions to be shattered, so You did. Thanks a lot. Really, thank You. This is liberating, and I’m for that. I am that. You said it. The word was made flesh and dwelt among us. Within us. As us. My love for You knows no limit. It grows as I lift it to You, praising You, loving You, faithfully waiting on You. That was a “One Voice” revelation, lovely one. Oh! Oh! Thank You! I feel warmth, a liquid vibration flowing over me. The tone it makes lifts me in His Love.

I’m supposed to go and sign the divorce documents tomorrow. If I did not know in my heart that what is happening is good, if I did not know what God is up to in all of this, my heart would be breaking. And it is, in a way, but what is real cannot be threatened. Why is it I feel so threatened?

Knowing that my Source is You, Wonderful God, I ask for Your abundance to rain down on me and my family. It is clear that our marriage is over, God. Please bless Gilbert beyond what he can ask, think or imagine. My family requires income from a new and wonderful Source. You have given me a dream, a desire deep in my heart, to publish the words You have given to me in our book. I ask that our book be published, and that this be the avenue for Your abundant blessings to flow to and through me. The right and perfect publisher is right now calling me (or e-mailing me or sending me a contract and a check by overnight mail). Confirm Your plan for me by making this so. The abundance that flows through the publishing and distribution of our book will enable me to bless my children, my mother, and my beloved church. The greatness of Your plan for humanity will flow through our book, awakening and enlightening hundreds, thousands, millions of Your beloveds worldwide, bringing them to their own evolution in Spirit.

Father Mother, I want my children to attend the learning institutions of their choice based upon their desires. I want the financial Peace to know this will happen. Mother God, I want to remodel my kitchen. I want to install new windows and landscape the lawn of my home. I want to re-decorate my home to reflect who I am in You. I want the financial Peace to know my mother will be comfortable, all the days of her life. I want to be able to give freely from my abundance. I know that You desire for me more than I could ask, think or imagine. Having placed my desires before You, I surrender to Your Will. I desire above all else to know You, to see You, to be one with You. Thy will be done. In the precious name and one with the wonderful consciousness of Christ Jesus, my sweet Yeshua, I ask and know. This or something better, Lord I Am. And it is so. Amen

Life is so very strange. In such a short time the world and my life have changed so dramatically. I feel dramatic, darting from darkness to light in consciousness, from death to life. Death is the same as life, like the appearance of trees in winter. Joy is the same as sorrow and love the same as fear – all appearances. Finding balance is a constant need. Balance can be found in breathing, you know. You treat breathing as a luxury. God? You have treated breathing as if it is something you cannot afford. It’s been tough getting through, my beloved one, very difficult. I have been in the soup. But I want You so much then take the time to seek Me! But God, I already found You I will let you know when you have reached permanency of Christ consciousness. Still you retreat, eh, beloved? Yes, I do. I know it. In the current time of my life, I find it difficult to trust experience. Since You are the provider of all experience, I am a little gun-shy. I understand. Truly.

God, I want to so purify my being that all of my “Libby-ness”… Ahem, your “Liberty?” Okay. Correction. Purify me, sanctify me; reveal through my being the word Liberty made flesh, fully manifest, fully awake full time, to do Your Work. That is a prayer. That prayer calls for agreement. That prayer calls for declaration.

God, I am so scared. I am just petrified with fear. I feel like a traitor to You. I want to trust You completely, to just fall into that wonderful childlike trusting. I feel like a rat in a brand-new maze, one that is dark and someone keeps opening trap doors in the floor. The floor keeps falling out from under me. I see that all this stuff is just stuff, just appearances. I know You have a marvelous plan for me, waiting just beyond my vision. It’s more than just a little difficult to trust experience. How can I trust? And yet what else is there? Because if I do not trust You, then I block understanding. Trust brings understanding. I need understanding.

I know your needs. I love you tenderly, devotedly. Close your eyes, darling child, and come to Me. I long for your closeness. You long for me? Oh yes…it’s a parent thing, you know? I crave your touch, your fragrance, your holy desire for Me. God? This is where I’m most afraid. I know You are calling me to completion and I am praying myself to completion…it’s like jumping consciously into a black hole, and I’m the only one nuts enough to jump. Am I nuts? I feel so crazy sometimes, believing I am ascending in consciousness, becoming Christ right here and right now in my silly little life. All I have is You. You are entirely everything. And You are not visible, yet appear everywhere. God, I want to be conscious of You, conscious in You, conscious as You.  So the rant is over and again we have agreement. I want you and you want Me. This is where I get to take the final step. Do You mean the “final step” as in the “A Course in Miracles” final step? That’s the final step to which I refer, yes. Oh. My. God. My heart is pounding. I want You to be close like this and I’m terrified at the same time. Oh my God – I’m afraid of You! I don’t want to fear You! I want only to love You!

Then be who you are! That is how you love Me, that is how you do My will and that is how you become the fullness of Christ Liberty, the word made flesh. You have been sent as a messenger of written and spoken word: the word liberty! You are a writer – write! Display your frail humanity and accept your feeling nature in full view of the beloveds who will read these words. Your humanity is important. Remember Jesus? You love his human-ness. Take on that which you are. My beloved and wonderful one, know that I have people lined up to give you My Abundance. Trust in the truth you KNOW and I will eliminate all fear from you. I want you only to love Me, holy Liberty, with more intense desire than your energy fields can possibly contain. This fear will leave you. That is My promise.


Jubilee!

The world is one mixed-up muddled-up place. We have problems galore and few solutions. The solutions we think we have are the subject of left-wing, right-wing name-calling and blame-gaming. Most of our collective problems have one source: greed. The love of money, it turns out, is indeed the root of all evil.

God had an idea we humans would act like this, so way back in the time of Moses He laid out a practical plan to deflate greed and maintain compassionate economic fairness. He even made it enticing and the Jews considered it a high holy-day (holiday) with feasting and merriment. But even Jews don’t practice it today.

I think God was on to something. I think it’s time to ACTUALLY trust that our Holy Parent might know a thing or two and give His plan a chance.  Let’s Jubilee!  ~ Libby

The Jubilee Atonement

Atonement gets plenty of attention in the Bible. “The Bible’s central message is atonement; that God has provided a way for humankind to come back into harmonious relationship with Him.” (Baker’s Evangelical Dictionary) The atonement is the entire purpose and subject matter of A Course in Miracles. Atonement for one’s deeds is a central tenet to the teachings of Alcoholics Anonymous. At a much-publicized recent gathering inTexas, Rick Perry (whether you like him or not) called for a “day of prayer and atonement for a nation in crisis.”

Do you even know the meaning of the word?

Atonement can mean ‘the making of amends or reparation for an offense of injury; satisfaction.’ It can mean ‘the reconciliation between God and people,’ often seen as the sacrificial death of Jesus Christ. In Christian Science, atonement means ‘the exemplifying of human oneness with God.’ Charles Fillmore, founder of Unity, defines atonement as “reconciliation of God and man through Christ; the uniting of our consciousness with the higher consciousness.” We have our atonement through Christ, and for this purpose Jesus demonstrated “the way.”

The word actually defines itself: at-one-ment, perfect reconciliation between you and God, united in consciousness as one mind, fully becoming the Christ by following for yourself, in your own unique manner, the way, the truth and the life of Jesus the Christ.

Tragically, the pure idea of atonement became attached to the ancient image of blood and gore: the sacrifice of animals on the altar to God, which morphed into the son of God being the blood sacrifice that would atone for all of us…Please – blood sacrifice is not what atonement is about. Atonement is about humility and renunciation of whatever it is that separates us from God. It’s time to detach old, grotesque ideas from your understanding of the atonement. Surely we’ve grown up enough to realize that blood sacrifice isn’t the way to God!

Atonement = At-One-ment. Not separate: whole.

Oneness with Source, the Creator of All-that-Is, the cosmic Father-Mother.

One with all beings and all beingness.

Yom Kippur

Translated as the Day of Atonement, Yom Kippur is the holiest day of the year for Jews. Even Jews who do not otherwise observe Jewish holidays observe Yom Kippur, much like secular Christians observe Christmas and Easter if nothing else. Yom Kippur happens in the early fall, the final day of a week-long celebration beginning with Rosh Hashana, the Jewish New Year. The intervening days are called the Days of Awe, ‘awe’ meaning humility before the awesome power of the Almighty. Yom Kippur, atonement, is commanded by God in the Law of Moses as a day of being humble before God as a people. The Jews of the Old Testament sacrificed a bullock (male calf), two goats and a ram or lamb on the altar of God in atonement for the sins of the people. The rituals were elaborate and followed to the letter. What most people don’t know is that animal sacrifice was common among hunter-gatherers way before sacrifice was written down as a ritual in the Old Testament writings, so perhaps God was simply using an already-ancient custom to symbolize a spiritual truth…

Yom Kippur is approached with fasting and prayer and rest. It takes serious personal reflection to commit to the Day of Atonement because this is a time commanded by God for personal forgiveness: everyone forgives everyone else for all slights and harms and misdeeds and misperceptions. After the ritual of personal forgiveness, the Jewish congregation speaks together three times: “May all the people of Israel be forgiven, including the strangers who live in their midst, for all the people are in fault.”

We need atonement, for all the people are in fault.

The Jubilee Year

Every 50 years (give or take) on Yom Kippur, the joyful shout of trumpets announced the Jewish year of Jubilee. The Jubilee year was actually a two year period of magnified atonement, restitution and restoration, during which even the land was left uncultivated so that the earth herself could rest. Debts were cancelled, slaves were emancipated and land that had been sold reverted to the former owners. Woo hoo! The Jubilee was a time of joyous introspection, rest, renewal and celebration. The Jubilee year is actually a command from YHWH given to Moses on Mt.Sinai for the benefit of the Israelites, an extension of the idea of the Sabbath, the seventh day of the week during which Jews were commanded to rest and focus on their God YHWH. The Jubilee year allowed God’s people and their land to rest and begin again, liberated from the bondage of debt or slavery. You can read all about it in Leviticus, Chapter 25.

YHWH was trying to establish a systematic program of forgiveness for the people, a kind of re-set button to prevent the extremes of poverty and uber-wealth we see in the world today. YHWH was offering us a gift of profound grace with His command, teaching us to extend the concepts of times for activity and rest, forgiveness and humility into all aspects of our lives, including the life of our earth, our families, communities, and even nations. Sadly, the practice of Jubilee generally died out during the Babylonian captivity of the Hebrew people, and there is no longer any agreement about when the next actual jubilee year might be.

However, it is becoming very clear: if we do not act voluntarily to forgive debt (use YHWH’s system), the human-created greed-machine system will do it. With violence.

Let’s declare a Jubilee Atonement!

Atonement is a matter of consciousness, not time – so any time is the right time. What if we simply declare the Jubilee RIGHT NOW? Since the Jews haven’t called it in centuries, we could begin a Jubilee that lasts until “Israel [Israel means ‘he who wrestles with God’ or in other words, me and you!] is cleansed from all guilt of fornication and uncleanness, pollution, sin and error, and dwells with confidence in all the land, and there will be no more a satan or any evil one, and the land will be clean from that time for evermore.” (Book of Jubilees)

Part 1: Debt

What would your life be like if you were not a slave to debt? Romans 18:8-10 (NIV):

“Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law. The commandments, “Do not commit adultery,” “Do not murder,” “Do not steal,” “Do not covet,” and whatever other commandment there may be, are summed up in this one rule: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” Love does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.”

Like it or not, St. Paul’s view in Romans is quite similar to the Muslim view of debt. The longest ayah (book) in the Quran is the ayah of debt. Muslims are strongly encouraged to buy only what they have money for, agree to a fixed price and avoid interest. Muslims believe that people in debt speak lies, break promises and will find it difficult to enterParadise.

What would your life be like…no mortgage on the house or loan on your car(s), no credit card bills, the IRS off your back, no medical bills or college loans, no payments to parents or friends or poker buddies, nothing owed to the title loan company…

Did you feel a sense of longing? Do you feel like it would be easier to love yourself, love your family and even love the world without the stress of being a slave to debt?

Could you be able to relieve others of their debts to you? What about those loans to people you know will never pay you back? Could you actually forgive your debts and debtors?

The ladder of debt forgiveness could extend higher and further: what if all banks forgave all loans and every loan the banks owed was also forgiven, all the way up and down the line? Could it work? What if theUSgovernment forgave all loans to states and cities? What if every country forgave loans owed by other countries? What if we all just declared do-overs?

What if we actually had the courage to use God’s system, the Jubilee Year re-set button?

As I write, a hopeful sign that people are getting the message has emerged: there is a movement in theUnited Statesto boost the economy by forgiving all student loan debt.

But don’t wait. Everything begins at the level of you and me. Robert F. Kennedy said “Few will have the greatness to bend history itself; but each of us can work to change a small portion of events, and in the total of all those acts will be written the history of this generation… it is from numberless diverse acts of courage and belief that human history is thus shaped. Each time a man stands up for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against injustice, he sends forth a tiny ripple of hope, and crossing each other from a million different centers of energy and daring, those ripples build a current which can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppression and resistance.”

It’s up to us to do what we can do. If someone owes you money and you are doing okay without it, forgive the debt! Suggest the forgiven party to ‘pay it forward’ and forgive another’s debt. Can you feel the healing potential inherent in this idea? Can you feel the ‘pay it forward’ sweeping around the globe?

Part 2: Forgiveness

Can you forgive? When you’re keeping score or holding a grudge, you keep yourself and the other in bondage, attached to the past and unable to move on. Forgiveness offers freedom from bondage to the past. Did you just think of someone? Forgive! Remember, all the people are in fault, including you. Expand your mind and think of more you could forgive. Maybe you could forgive your ex for being such an ass. Maybe you could forgive your parents or your neighbor or the guy who cut you off in traffic. Maybe you could forgive your former boss for laying you off when he had no choice. Maybe you could forgive the politicians or the media or the terrorists or the Wall Street bigwigs or the corporatist manipulators…this forgiveness thing can (and must) be extended: religions must forgive other religions, nations must forgive other nations, races must forgive religions and nations – none of us are free when we live in bondage to our communal past, to ancient hurts and out-dated ideas.

Our deep desire is the perfect freedom of being forgiven. But real, lasting forgiveness has another requirement.

Part 3: Humility

The alcoholic knows the drill: Alcoholics Anonymous makes sure of it. Just like the alcoholic, we all need to make amends or reparations to be deserving of forgiveness. We need to humble ourselves, apologize and come clean before the person we harmed. Humility is not the American way, but it is Yahweh. It is the way of the Christ. Jesus humbled himself and became a servant to humanity and remains so. The Pope needs to apologize to abused children and Catholic parents and American Indians and Africans and Jews to make the Catholic Church deserving of forgiveness. The United States of America needs to apologize to Iraq and Afghanistan (among others) for bombing their women and babies and calling it collateral damage. We need to apologize to Mexico for demanding their money-producing crops and their people for low-wage employment and then punishing them for answering our calls. BP and Exxon and hundreds of other corporations need to apologize for having so little regard for the earth and for humanity. Wall Street and Congress need to apologize for creating such a financial mess. We need to see remorse and shame and responsibility to be able to forgive.

Humility is cleansing. It purifies the soul. Humility restores relationships, from the individual to national to global.

Part 4: Sacrifice

“What is the real meaning of sacrifice? It is the cost of believing in illusions. It is the price that must be paid for the denial of truth.” (A Course in Miracles)

In the spirit of the symbolism of the Hebrew blood sacrifice, I pray:

Holy YHWH, I offer myself upon Your altar of at-one-ment. I accept your gift of grace. My offering to You is my stubborn bullish nature. I offer my dual goat nature, my arrogant ego and my shadowy scapegoat. I offer myself as the lamb, humbled, cleansed and purified. Together with Jesus the Christ I atone for the sins of the world. I apologize for us all, YHWH. I choose to see through the illusions. I will not deny the truth. Father-Mother, forgive us for we know not what we do. Amen

As above, so below

Isaiah 47:11 says “But evil shall come upon you, which you will not know how to charm away; disaster shall fall upon you, for which you will not be able to atone; and ruin shall come upon you suddenly, of which you know nothing.”

Disaster has befallen us for which we are not able to atone. Ruin is upon us and we certainly seem to know nothing. We need God’s wisdom. We need God’s inspiration. Albert Einstein said “A new type of thinking is essential if mankind is to survive and move toward higher levels.” We need You, YHWH.

Take heart! A Course in Miracles says “There is no order of difficulty in miracles. One is not “harder” or “bigger” than another. They are all the same. All expressions of love are maximal.” God (by any name) can do this “save the world” thing – all He asks is that we follow His system.

American Indian prophecies point to the current human predicament, and all agree that by a return to the ways of “the people,” our Earth and humankind will not only survive, but thrive. As a culture, “the people” do not share our concept of personal ownership or possession. One practice that is common to almost every American Indian nation is called a “giveaway,” and if you attend a powwow or any other ceremonial event, you may witness a giveaway. Giving is central to being an American Indian, a way of giving thanks, bestowing honor, teaching about relationship, distributing goods for the survival of all and for maintaining balance within the community.

Sounds like the American Indians lived a heavenly life of giving and receiving. I’m for returning to the ways of “the people.”

Until then, why not try God’s cosmic re-set button?

Let’s be free.

Let’s Jubilee!